hello blog.

I have been MIA.  I was in South Carolina for the past week.  I brought my computer thinking I would blog during Henry's naps while everyone else is at the beach and I was inside with Hank.

  BUTTTT>>> I didnt.. I just didn't feel like it.

  I love this blog and I love what it does for me.. Every few days I intentionally sit down and think about how I am doing... what have my days been filled with... what is God doing in my life....

.. most of the time it leaves me feeling excited, proud and encouraged.. 

.. other times I hate the way my life feels:

:::I am a loser.. I have NOTHING going on right now.  

:::: I am so negative.. why cant I just be happy/positive/grateful

::::: being a mom is so hard.. I dont feel like watching Henry all day every day... I want to go to the pool and lay out for hours without worrying about naps, feedings, sunscreen, and if I am leaking through my swimsuit.  (haha sorry if this is TMI...) ... Can you tell this is the emotion I am feeling right this second?!

I am tired.  I am burnt out. I am not excited about anything.  I am in need for the Holy Spirit to refresh me.  I cant do this on my own.  Lord Help!!