So I am not the best pregnant person.. so far

So this week has taken some adjusting.  I haven't felt good all week and I get terrible headaches on top of my other symptoms.  I just don't feel like I am a good pregnant woman.  Today was the first day I felt like I was somewhat "showing"... and I didn't like it.  Jordan was trying to be sweet and kept telling me it was normal and fun but it didn't really help.  I guess I just see most pregnant women rubbing their bloat and being ecstatic about it, and I am not that way at all.  So I may post a few "bump" pics on here but I don't think I will be comfortable posting that very often.  

We went into a Maternity store today and I think the woman thought I was crazy.  She was all chipper and nosey asking me all these questions.  My mom and Jordan were walking around with me pointing out all the "cute" maternity clothes.  I don't know why but most maternity clothes are hideously ugly to me.  You pay 70 dollars for a top that looks like its from Walmart.  I am hoping because I am smaller I can just wear normal clothes in bigger sizes... we shall see.

On the other hand, I am excited about actually having a kid.  Which I guess is the important thing right? :::Insert validation here:::::  I really like kids and feel I may be somewhat of an unconventional mother, but at the same time I think Jordan and I are a great team and have a lot of love to offer a little tot! haha.  

Plus its been cool the words that have already been given over our baby.  Numerous people have come to me (some not knowing I am pregnant) and have told us how special and anointed our baby will be.  That is the one thing I want for my baby, for him/her to know how loved he/she is by God, and to be able to love the Lord back with all that he/she is.

Sorry this note started on a pessimistic note.  This is how I have been lately and I am driving myself crazy!!! It helps to release it in a healthy way! haha. Hope everyone has a good weekend.  I am going to Pittsburgh tomorrow for my cousins graduation.  It should be fun!